Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Pregnant or Not Pregnant: That is the Question

Forget Shakespeare and his "to be or not to be"; am I pregnant or not? The answer of course is I have no idea. I have symptoms, but I've had symptoms before. Some of it could be real, some of it is probably in my head. Ah, the roller coaster of infertility emotions never go away. The good news is that I don't have to wait as long this time to find out if it worked. The bad news is I don't know what the verdict will be yet.

So what do I have?
1. tender breasts - the fertiles out there are jumping up and down screaming: "pregnant"; the rest of us know that ugly progesterone gives me this side effect regardless of a pregnancy or not
2. looking tired - I don't feel any more tired than usual, however one of my customers told me yesterday that I didn't look like myself and that I appeared fatigued. Not sure that counts, but I'm documenting anyway...
3. twinges/flutters/cramping - I've felt these since the transfer. Could be real or could be in my head. Who knows.
4. nausea - now this one is strange. As we were flying back from Denver, I felt really sick. I've never thrown up on a flight, however, I looked to be sure the barf bag was in the seat pocket in front of me. It was, didn't use it, but weird. Could also be my mind playing tricks on me...
5. food issues - I can usually stop eating and try to appear somewhat sophisticated when having dinner with customers. However, I couldn't stop eating last night. I think it was the best food I've ever eaten. I ate everything. Including the creme brulee (which I'm very picky about as most restaurants can't ever get right). I ate every bite of it and the waiter noticed laughing and said he could bring me another. That made me feel piggish, but I wonder if I would've said yes if I were dining alone...(No, Definitely No)
6. constipation - this has been the worst. I struggle anyway with it since I'm an over the top Type A freak. However, this was really bad yesterday. Thank goodness relief finally came, but this prompted me to start googling the ole early pregnancy symptoms.
7. ass aches - lol. Just throwing that in so that everyone know my PIO injections are truly a pain in my ass (ouch)...but, I hope I get to continue them for several more weeks to come. :-)
8. frequent urination - not fair really here since I've still got my bladder infection. Although the infection is getting much better since I started on the Keflex.
9. bloated - I feel this a lot though...
10. the "glow" - I'll end with this one as it's all Steve. He checks my face daily for the pregnancy glow. He says it's there. I say it's the estrogen. Random people have been telling me this for a few weeks now, so that's all I can think that's different about me. But, he still likes to check for "his sign."

That's all I can think of right now. So to sum it all up, I have no answers nor will I until this weekend. I've just got to muster up some patience until then.

25 comments:

DAVs said...

Hoping hoping hoping for you! A lot of those sound like winners! When do you test?

Jen said...

Wow, you only have to wait until this weekend??? That's a fast beta. Congrats on an awesome transfer of two beautiful blasts. I am praying like crazy they stick around for you!!!!! The symptoms sound very promising.

Korndog said...

I've been following your blog for awhile but I don't think I've ever posted. I just wanted to let you know that I'm praying for you! I really hope that you are pregnant!

Emily said...

All sounds promising!!! You know I am your biggest cheerleader!

The constipation sucks - you can thank the PIO for that. I had it terribly- not even the Colace was helping. We know how this story ends, but Lisa had it too and her news was all good. Its a toss up- that symptom is probably more of a side effect...

Everything crossed! I can hardly wait for your news! Mmmm - creme brulee...

Lisa said...

They all sound great to me!! I posted my symptoms a couple of days back and I had most of the one's you are talking about and ended up with BFP!!!!! I'm so excited for you and crossing my fingers and hoping that your miracle is about to come true!!! I know the wait is complete and utter torture, all the guessing and wondering and second guessing. Hang in there! It's won't be long now :)

Penny said...

The constipation is definitely the progesterone. But the food and nausea not so much, at least, commonly. I hated the 'fake' symptoms PIO gave. Sigh.

Lorrie said...

Great laundry list of symptoms there! Praying this is it!

Kate said...

Ahhh the 2ww - or in your case, a little over a week. I hate those pseudo preg symptoms. It is all sounding very positive though and you transfered perfect blasts.

Hope2morrow said...

Oh man! I can't wait! So slose to testing date...... you must update frequently!

JJ said...

Hoping these are all FANTASTIC signs! So hopeful for you=)

Rela Pantaleon said...

"Nothing to do but"iclw wait, get busy, keep positive and pray... Go Dallas and Denver!

Arpee @ The Saga of Becoming Fruitful

Suzanne said...

Oh, I hope these are genuine pregnancy symptoms. Good luck!

retro girl said...

Fingers crossed...hope the next few days go by very quickly!

Just Another Infertile said...

I'm so excited for you! Good luck. I'll be thinking of you.

Sky said...

Okay, seriously, you have my deepest respect and envy. I can't believe you have the strong will not to test. I would be going CRAZY!!!! Since there was no trigger shot, I started testing on 3dp6dt - that's how anxious I was.

As for your symptoms, that nausea really really really resonates with me.

I say you're definitely eating for two! :)

Not Your Aunt Bea said...

Hoping you get your miracle(s)!

Jen said...

I will be thinking about you and hoping for fantastic news this weekend!

Heather said...

Oooo. I'm so excited for you!!! Good luck

Just Me. said...

Those symptoms sound very promising!!!! I'll keep you in my prayers and am really hoping this is IT IT IT!!!

((((HUGS))))

MamaSoon said...

This weekend!!!??? That is like 36 hours from now, right? So wishing you a big fatty of a beta.

Beth & Brian said...

I'll be stalking your blog this weekend!! Can't wait to see your results!

M. said...

Just thinking back over my BFP cycle symptoms, and it's looking good, Jill!! Fingers, toes, everything crossed for you guys :) Stick babies!!

Me said...

Luck! Luck! Luck!

Kristen said...

I am so stinkin' excited for you!!!! Where has the time gone? I am gone until Sunday...so I will be DYING to hear your results! Best of luck, Jill!!!!

Lost in Space said...

This all sounds so great, Jill!!! I can hardly wait for this weekend and am praying that your dreams and wishes come true in just a couple days. Hang in there!!!