Sunday, January 4, 2009

Bad dreams

I can't wait to our next u/s on Tuesday. My mind is definitely in overdrive right now. I really try not to worry, but unfortunately, I can't control my mind during my dreams.

Last night I had several dreams, all of which involved me doing something stupid to jeopardize the pregnancy. From jumping off a cliff into a lake filled with trees and other debris that could easily injure both me and the babies to snow skiing down treacherous slopes again filled with all kinds of potential disasters. Why am I dreaming of these crazy stunts? I don't even do these things in a non-pregnant state. I tried to think about other things, but really couldn't shake the dreams. All of them ended with me and an u/s and not being sure of its outcome.

Obviously, I know I'm worried about our u/s. I just hope everything looks okay. I know my fears and concerns really won't ever leave me, but man, I hope I can start managing them a little better. I've got 32 weeks to go!

16 comments:

Lisa said...

Jill - I think that is natural given all that you have been through - our fears find us!
I cannot wait to hear about your next us and hear how the boys are doing!

Sky said...

Normal, Normal, Normal.

This is unfortunately so normal in the world of IVF.

Now, the natural girls - the one's like my friend G who decided the actual month she would not use protection and get pregnant THREE TIMES and succeeded (and all in her mid 30's) - she NEVER had any fears whatsoever. No bad dreams, nothing.

Ignorance is truly bliss.

Penny said...

Best of luck waiting it out. I hope everything's good to go and you're booted out to a "regular" OB.

ashley said...

It's completely natural to worry about something you've worked so hard for. I hope your worries subside soon with your next ultrasound.

~Jess said...

I agree that it's completely normal: I know that's how I am about everything.

I'm praying that your dreams go away and that everything is good.


(PS I tagged you on my blog)

Emily said...

I am sorry. I hope these nightmares leave you soon. I am sure it is just your anxiety manifesting itself...
Wishing you peace awake and asleep!

tryingtoconceive said...

I'm excited for your u/s too!

Hopefully, those dreams will subside as you get farther in your pregnancy. I had dreams like that in my first trimester - from slipping and falling on wet cement, to drinking a beer - just weird dreams that I hurt the kids. I'm still super afraid of falling!

Good Egg Hunting said...

I will just reiterate what's been said -- you are totally normal and these dreams are just reflective of natural worries. I am thinking of you and hoping for a perfect next u/s for you.

natenang654 said...

I think I've heard vivid dreams are a sign of pregnancy?? Wishing you wonderful news on Tuesday and restful sleep!!

Lost in Space said...

Hugs, Jill. That doesn't sound like much fun. Wishing you peaceful sleep and hoping to see a fabulous update from you on Tuesday!

Jill said...

Soooo normal (but scary)!!

By the way, I had to make my blog private. :( I'd love to send you an invite -- e-mail me at jillrock96 (at) verizon (dot) net if you'd like one! :)

Chelle said...

ohhhh bad dreams are so worrisome! I'm sorry! (is that how you spell worrisome?)

Hang in there!

PS-I nominated you for the Angry Infertile award.

Just Me. said...

It's normal, really. I had bad bad dreams and am still having them. I will NOT RELAX until the baby is here safe and sound in my arms. Of course, then comes another set of worries..but I just wanna see him, feel him and though i know that it's for real now than ever, I know I won't breathe until he is here.

Sorry, I'm rambling.

ps But I tell ya, I had a horny dream one night! shan't go into details. lol. :)

M. said...

You're totally normal :) And I think it will get better -- it did for me. I stopped worrying as much when I could feel them moving. I think you will, too. It's a sign your maternal instincts are kicking in. And the vivid dreams...welcome to pregnancy hormones, kiddo!!

Steph said...

Welcome to motherhood! You will worry for the rest of your life. And I don't know about Sky's friend, but this natural girl had all kinds of bad dreams, as has everyone else I know. Amanda just called me not long ago to ask if it's normal. It is. I can't imagine how much it's exacerbated after all you've been through. I wish I could tell you they would stop, but Carl and I both have them about the boys - even now.

I love you! Call me after your u/s.

Polly Gamwich said...

Just checking in on you ... wanted to see how today went.